High Hopes

I often have high hopes that let me down.

I don't know why I constantly do this to myself. I'm not even sure I mean to. I end up hurting myself more than what actually happened.

I just hope that this time he was true and I was wrong, then maybe my hopes will be brought back.

But until then I sit here and wonder why I do this.

Things I Hear

Overhearing my roommate complain to her boyfriend that I decided to take a shower at 11:15pm  instead of one in the morning seems silly. 

Her main point was that she was tired and was ready to go to bed. Then why couldn't she? 

Instead of being all pissy with me, why don't you just go to bed? I mean we are both adults, therefore we don't need permission to do certain things. So what I prefer to shower before bed because I hate feeling dirty, or that I stick to a bedtime face routine? 

Just because you don't care about washing your face and keeping yourself clean does not mean I have to sacrifice my routines. 

I just don't get why she was so bothered why I took a shower, how I don't like to go to bed with my hair wet, or why I have to do "a lot of stuff" to my face. 

Personally I hate going to bed feeling dirty, I can't sleep with my hair wet (mainly because it'll be a big puff ball of curls in the morning), and all the "stuff" I do to my face isn't actually a lot (unlike you I don't like having acne so I do my best to prevent it).

Another point she said to her boyfriend was that on the nights she doesn't have to get up early I go to bed early and on nights she has to get up early I sleep in and stay up late. How about NO. I go to bed anywhere from 10:00 to 11:30 every night. 

We have been living together for a whole semester, you think she would of caught on to that by now. I'm sorry that I actually stayed out past my non existent curfew and force you to stay up and worry about me and not get sleep until I was fully ready for bed. 

If you are tired turn off the light and go to sleep. I really don't care. I do it all the time. 

Just because we share a room doesn't mean we have to do things together.

I'd preferred if we didn't anyway.

It's not like you're a walk in the park to live with either. I mean walking in on you and your boyfriend isn't  exactly something I would like to do. Or having to listen to you to talk constantly on the phone. 

We are completely different to begin with and it is blatantly clear. 

So yeah, call me a princess because that's what I am.     

 

Single Forever

I seriously think that I will never have that special guy in my life.

I'm almost 20 and I have never had a boyfriend.
Let alone a guy who was interested in me enough to go out on a date with me.

I just don't get it. I mean I'm not entirely repulsive. I guess.

It just sucks when I'm the third wheel or when my friends talk about a certain guy they think is "the one" and I can count on one hand how many guy(s) I have "talked" to.

I'm just tired of hearing about how my friends have met their soul mate or have a boyfriend and I have met no one. It hurts me more than anything really. I just want to be happy for once.

Everyone told me that when I went to college I would meet a guy and fall head over heels and now I beginning to think that it's just a lie.

New Year's Resolutions

Let's hope I actually follow through with this

For 2014 I want to have and fulfill some New Year's Resolutions. I the next four resolutions come to mind whenever I randomly doze off and think about random things to do. I want to do this for myself. I want to be able to show me that I can accomplish things if I give it my all.   

 

So here they are, my 2014 New Year's Resolutions. 

1. Size 4
2. Become a Runner
3. Run a 5k
4. Straight A's

Forever Single?

I don't get it. 

I'm the only one out of my group of friends that has never had a boyfriend. 

Ever since I came to College, I thought that I would meet a guy that I liked or even have a good guy friend. 
But nope, I don't even have any guy friends nor any interested suitors. 

Just for once in my life I don't want to be the third wheel. That's all I'm asking for. The third wheel is a special role. At all times you feel as if you are intruding on a conversation, especially if they start to cuddle and kiss each other. I cannot absolutely stand being around that.  

I'm just hoping and praying that when the right guy does come around, hopefully soon, it makes up for the  years I have spent being single.  

But as of right now, I am forever single.

College

School is fabulous...

My roommate? Not so much

As a freshman in college I was faced with sharing a room for the first time. At first I thought I would love it, until I actually shared a room with a girl I have only talked to over the phone.

If I knew what I would of had in store this year, I would of moved out a long time ago.

First off let me tell you a little bit about myself.

1. I am very very organized with the way my room is and I must clean at least twice a week.
2. I love the cold. Therefore the room I stay in must be cold.
3. I am a morning person and enjoy going to bed early. 
4. Coffee is the main reason I function every day. 
5. I love candles but because we cannot have them at school, I have resorted to wall plug-ins.

Now my roommate on the other hand? I only see her "clean" when we go on breaks. She enjoys the room to be warm (she left it on 90 one day, remind you I'm going to school in Florida). She sleeps in until 12 everyday when she does not have class.

So you could say there is a little tension in the room, especially when the boyfriend comes to town. I just do not enjoy seeing them make out on her bed, do not even bring up the noises they make. 

Long story short.

Pay the extra money for the single. 

It will be worth it.

Trust me.